So when I was little, I used to look at other girls... And because of the pentecostal church I grew up, we really didn't have the time to say our opinion. It was 'This is it!' 'This is it!

But as time grew, I began realizing that I was lacking confidence. I used to see myself as inferior and it ate deep into my life. I won't be able to talk to other people, I won't be able to eat outside, I wouldn't be able to even laugh or smile. It was really bad. 

And the worst was yet to come. The peak of the situation was when I looked into the mirror and concluded that God did a bad work. Yes. I saw myself as ugly. I saw myself as less. I saw myself as not up to standard and everything began from there. 

So I heard from my classmates; 'Guys don't like people that eat!' And I thought, so if I don't eat, guys will like me? So I stopped eating. And it became a habit. My parents will beg me to eat and I wouldn't. Food became a disease to me. 

So ulcer came. Invited and well prepared. Unfortunately for me, I had been having stomach issues since I was 4years and my parents didn't know it was ulcer since it was rare for a child to be diagnosed with that kind of sickness at that time... and to make matters worst, I had taken my friends advice.

At age 13, it already became worst. I was now diagnosed with chronic gastric ulcer. It was bad. It was chaotic. It was deadly... At a time I couldn't really do anything about it! 

Now, I just take drugs and pray to God. Would it be like that if I hadn't followed my friends advice? Would it have been better if I had confidence? Would it have been different if I felt 'up to standard'? 

Thinking about all these things I want you to help the upcoming kids. Do you know what lack of confidence can cause? 

It can kill a child and his dreams! Let's raise these kids confidence! They are the leaders of tomorrow!

With love,
Greatful-lily